Experiences Desired

I was like super busy for the last month of school. It as really, really exciting and yet really, really stressful. I had to make many sacrifices, some I regret and some I don’t. Priorities have always been a tough thing for me to struggle with. I think that’s why it has always been so important to me to surround myself with others around me, to build me up, to hold me accountable. I know I’m not strong enough to do this on my own, to live my life on my own. My first accountability comes from God, currently my second accountability comes from my brothers in Christ and my friends, and then thirdly my support and accountability has been my family. I would consider myself close to my family but I feel like I struggle with so many trust issues that come from that third part of accountability. I have been taught that you can’t really count on anyone. That you can’t really trust all you have with anyone. And that the best you can do is hope that God picks up the pieces. I know this not to be true. I know that God is bigger than simply a vacuum. My relationship with God is so much bigger than just letting God sweep up crap in my life. He is the glue that holds my life together. God is the passion in my life, the love that holds me close and the love that ignites my heart. My personality (good and bad) might come from my family, but my destiny within the hands of my Lord Jesus Christ. My joy comes from Him alone and the strength that I train for; physical, emotional, spiritual strength, all of it comes from my Lord. At the same time that my heart is strong, I need to make sure that it is the reflection of a humble, friendly, loving God. His joy should be my joy! As John Eldridge says in W@H, God’s goal is about “restoring a Godly dream in the soul of a man. A desire to truly be a man, rather than a softened-neutered-nice-but-restrained-guy that the world has somehow dictated that Christian males should be.” I often get confused at to what I might think one person whats, what a friend wants, what God wants; when in reality I have learned that all I can do is open my heart to new experiences and to new joys. To be vulnerable is what it is like to truly live. God will take care of the details, and with Him in my life; all the other pieces will come together according to His wisdom.

New Experiences according to God’s plan and timing I hope to accomplish in the next few weeks, months, years (hopefully more than once):
Play lots of Euchre and learn new card games
Skydiving
Camping-often
Scubadiving
Parasailing
Surfing
Sailing
Backpacking in Colorado
Going Snowboarding again…but on fresh powder this time
Visit Europe
Live abroad (not for a while though)
Dance for more than 30 min in a summer rain
Eagle a Par 5 golf hole
Learn to play the guitar
Take and “pass” the GMAT
Encourage others
Grow toward God daily
Be a better friend
Show that I can be a friend within aspects of relationships
Get married (only once)
Live Boldly